"The will to win means nothing if you haven't the will to prepare."
- Juma Ikangaa, 1989 NYC Marathon winner
Busy day, Gwyneth's derby practice and Reeve's 8th grade promotion threatened to derail my run but I managed to fit it in while she practiced. I was supposed to run 5 miles however due to time constraints I swapped for Thursday's run and did 4 instead. I know this is not a big deal but this is the first time I have diverged from "the plan". I can be obsessive about new hobbies, to the exclusion of everything else in my life. I realized that an event like my son's 8th grade promotion might be a little more important than 1 mile. Since starting to train I have ditched all other hobbies. I started taking fiddle lessons a couple months ago but have skipped the last 3 classes. I wonder why I have such a hard time balancing. I am now afraid to start anything new because I might lose interest in running and I just cannot quit on myself this time. My biggest fear is that after the race I will crap out completely on fitness. I do not want this to be a whim. I do not want to look back in 10 years and remember the brief time that I got in shape and took good care of myself. I do not want to live out my life like my mother did, always planning to get healthy some day but never really committing 100% to it.
I do not want to die like her.
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